Within the past year, I have adopted and coined the phrase ““Chase the butterflies, because that is when you feel truly alive”. Anyone who actively follows my writing has read multiple pieces about chasing the feeling regardless if it comes to love, changes in life, or something as mundane as sharing your soul through your work. This has been a constant motto when I decide to actively pursue a new adventure in life.
Every human naturally has the instincts to alert them of danger and unknown territory. We are naturally programmed to distance ourselves from things that are not natural to our-self. When things are not familiar we begin to feel afraid, our hearts starts to race, we become nervous, we avoid the unfamiliar, and ultimately we stay within our comfort zone. We are simply creatures of habit. Our brain is also programmed to tell us “you cannot get this done”, “this is crazy”, and any other phrase that stops us from pursuing something head on.
Due to my natural inclination to remain within comfort, I have made it my personal goal to chase the butterflies, to push past all my fears. To become truly alive. Fear is such a huge limitation even when we do not even recognize fear. Personally my anxiety and the expectations that I see within society limits the things that I pursue. The truth is I limit myself in so many ways in life, as do so many other individuals. We constantly tell ourselves that we are not good enough or allow society to tell us what is acceptable and what is not. Chasing the butterflies has become a constant reminder that at the point when the fear of the unknown comes within my life that I will constantly pursue that unknown. That moment when you fear jumping the most is when you need to take the leap because growth is not developed within comfort zones.
As I coined “chasing the butterflies”, I have never stopped to think of the symbolism and importance of butterflies within the world view. Butterflies have a vast amount of meanings depending on the person and the culture. Within the christian religion butterflies signify resurrection, other people around the world see it as symbols representing endurance, change, hope, and life. There are so many heartfelt stories and meaning to each person that you come across.
Today as I hastily began to get ready for my last Sunday within my current position, I look up on my mirror and see a green butterfly. My first thought was that I was going to remind my niece to stop placing stickers on things throughout my house, and something told me to blow on the sticker, as i began to blow the wings of the butterfly fluttered and than moved to another position. This was in fact a butterfly in my bathroom at 7 am in the morning was pretty peculiar and it was my favorite color.
I am not a person that believes in coincidence or mistakes. That butterfly was my symbol. It was a symbol for my life and the current life circumstances that I am at right now. I am making a huge career move, and I have been questioning if my abilities will be suited well with the new responsibility. I have been struggling with my confidence to drive steadily into the future without looking back. I have had butterflies and have felt the fear lingering within the dark corners of my being. Not only with my career but also within many aspects of my personal life. The color green is a symbol of growth, ambition, harmony, renewal, and energy. It is time for my new path. I am going to chase my green butterfly and start to feel more alive than ever before.
You will always catch me chasing the butterflies.